The first day of the first week of the new Conservative government and the penultimate week of the year. By God it’s been a long year…

A year dominated by toxic and seemingly never ending Brexit discussions and a feeling that we were just holding our breath as a nation. But now it seems as though it’s all over and the deal is done. Of course it’s not, it’s just the start of the beginning of the end. What a way to end the first decade of the new millennium.

And what of me?

What of me?

I posted an Instagram post yesterday documenting my Hairstory.

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It’s coming to the end of year now and I’m looking back at pictures of my hair. It started the year rather sad and grey and if I’m being honest, just a little neglected. However I found an amazing hairdresser who has transformed my hair. I’m so happy my hair has grown and I’ve taken time to nurture and love it. I need to be better at looking after my mind, soul and body in the same way. Shout out to #dvatash and #myhairbarlondon to making me feel incredible everytime I leave the salon. My point? Heading in to the new decade with self-care at the forefront of my mind in order to make more of a difference in other areas. I’m tired of being too tired to do anything. I’m tired of being too tired to do anything but accept the status quo. I know I can be more and do more but I need to set the right foundation. I want to ensure I create the right circumstances to give me the energy I need to make a difference, if only small. Why am I rambling on and on? Because it’s difficult to stay silent anymore. I’m not sure what I’m going to do but I know I cannot do it without inner strength and outward support. We are stronger together. We are stronger together. We are stronger together. #2020 #vision #growth #goals

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Of no significant and interest to rest of the World but to me a lesson of what I could achieve with some attention and self-care. I need to spend the next year focusing on the inside or I will just implode. I’ve been letting myself get overwhelmed by work and life in ways that are unproductive and unhealthy. However I am working hard to restore the balance.

I’m weary and tired and I don’t want to start a new decade in that state. So my ‘New Years Resolutions’ start now. The first and only one is to be kind to myself. I don’t think it’s selfish, I think it’s the only way to honour the gift of life that I have been given and receive everyday. I should stop taking it for granted. I am also hoping with a bit more energy I can do more than just work, get home and collapse into an exhausted heap. I feel like I need to contribute something more to the world. Not sure what it is yet but I know that I’ve got to build up my inner strength and reserve. I want to be able to be kind to others. This whole year has felt like a year of watching the world and the country tear itself apart while I watch, say and do nothing. Of course, there is not much to be done as an individual but daily meaningful acts of kindness make a big difference. I feel like I have been floating along and letting it all pass me by. I never used to do. I used to do more. Granted, I was younger and had less responsibilities but still. Still I was able to get out and help, I was part of a community. It’s about time I changed my own narrative.

Yes we can

Together we are stronger